Here is a little bit about me.

As you know im 22 years old and i live in Nottingham.I am not gay but i have been secretly dressing since i was around 6yrs old. I would wait till everyone was asleep and sneak into my sister's room and take things to try on under the duvet Until i was about 13 i kinda just did this. When i got to age 13 i had pocket money and dinner money and other allowances which allowed me to buy girly things like make-up and even clothes.. I used to love going to school wearing sexy knickers, tights or sometimes even a little bra.

At School

One thing i used to love doing was going to lost property when noone was around and help myself to some of the skirts and blouses and sometimes even shoes. Anyway as i reached the tender age of 15 i had got myself a nice stash of girly clothes and accessories. I used to go out for the odd walk and then get changed in the woods near my house. although i always felt that i could look better by having new shoes or new makeup or whatever.

Spotted

I got spotted a couple of times... One morning when i was about 14yrs old i thought that nobody would be around, so i went to a local park with fairly big paths and i was wearing a red skirt, tights, sexy tight blouse, black size5 platform shoes and some lipstick. Unfortunately for me i had short spikey hair that made me stand out a mile. In fact even though i kept me head down as i was walking past this old bloke he said "Oi youth you look a tw*t" which didn't do anything for my confidence.

Anyway i have always been a little bit of a perfectionist so i was always trying to make myself look more passable (note i said passable not sexy or slutty) My main goal has been to pass in public and always will be. My best purchase yet has been a realistic wig, i have had a few but i have settled on a long straight brown wig with a little fringe. .In fact one night i went out late dressed and a drunk made a pass at me he said i was the prettiest girl he'd seen all night and he'd like to sh*g me.(OK so it wasn't the best thing he could've said but it really boosted my confidence).

Tips

As i have gotten older i have come to realise a few things about the public, Anyone just starting out as a TV/CD might want to remember these few pointers:

• If you dress like a girl and act confident you can quite easily walk through a busy city centre and maybe only get spotted a couple of times. This is because 99% of people don't care if you're black, white, gay, TV, old or a failing rock star busking for donuts.
• Even if you are spotted what do you think is gonna happen? I would very much doubt that the person would stop dead, point at you and shout "Look everyone, This girl is a boy". More than likely you will just get looked sideways and then the moment and that person is gone forever.
• Real girls are the ones who will spot you if you do anything out of place so the best thing to do is to act really confident and ignore them if they say anything bitchy.

Aged 21

I recently got dressed up and i am fairly passable even up close and i was sat in the park and next minute a group of girls walked past, I wasn't too worried i was sat there and kept my head down and played on my mobile phone. All was fine the girls aged 13 -16 walked past, and then it happened, one of them came back and asked if i had a light (OH NO! i have to speak!!!) i spoke quietly and just said "no sorry" and she walked away...then turned round and raised an eyebrow and said "are you a boy?" i turned confident and said that i was a TV she couldn't beleive it giggled ran back to her friends, pointed back at me and they all giggled and ran up to me. So i was surrounded on this park bench by about 6 really pretty schoolgirls. It was like a rapid fire question round but they seemed really cool and even gave me some makeup and hair tips, one of them started doing my hair and one redid my lipstick (they just thought it was fun) I was on a real big high with my sexy new lips and my hair redone, infact the girl made my hair look better in 5 minute than i could do in an hour. I left them said good bye and they all shouted and waved goodbye, they were all shouting "bye Samantha" "cya later Samantha" it made me feel so good. It is one of my best experiences dressed.

Jan 2004

Even more recently, Jan 2004, I have been even more confident and went to the bank to pay a cheque into my account v(via an indoor automatic machine) but it was really busy and i know not one person spotted my secret. I even went for a walk around another park and as i was walking a girl approached with a buggy and as she passed me by i knew she hadn't `made' me, So i turned and asked her `did i look like a girl' at which point she did a genuine double take and said "wow, i thought you were... i saw you walking towards me... wow i never would've guessed" . This finished my day off nicely and now i can't wait till i go out again.